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| 05:08pm 17/12/2004 |
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mood:  uncomfortable music: "Televators" -Mars Volta
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Take the quiz: "Serial Killer Quiz"
Johnny the Homicidal Maniac
you kill assholes; lots of assholes! HOORAY for You!!!! |
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| 05:22pm 07/11/2004 |
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mood: bored music: "Nothingwrong" J.E.W.
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hmm...ive done nothing this weekend.
no wait, yesterday we went to the Kennedy Space Center
I really enjoyed it, i love astronomy, i would love to work there someday.
But my family really hated it, haha, they were so bored. I'm pretty sure they only wanted to see the 3D IMAX movie...which by the way left me cross-eyed...i still have a headache
yea... im really really, really, really, bored.
and when im bored i paint....
im not done with it, haha, i still need to touch it up, right now my neck hurts, i've been painting on the floor for the past few hours...and it was supposed to look like, semi-childish writing, so leave me alone...
but anyways, it didn't come out as bad as i thought ...huh...right?
the scanner ruins it, the green is pretty, not like the poo-poo green you see before you
yea, i wanna go paint something else, im still really bored, and lord knows im not going to start doing HOMEWORK....haha...yea sure
This day has gone by really slow...i need something to do...nvm, il jus practice somethin on EL BAJO, i love my BAJO...makes me happy :-)
or i can just start painting satanic symbols and phrases on my bedroom wall right next to my Kurt Cobain poster...yea...i think il just do that...boy my parents will LOVE IT! |
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| 09:30pm 04/11/2004 |
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mood:  sick music: "You're Crazy" Guns N' Roses
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god i hope its me
thats all i have to say ^.^ |
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| Heart! We will forget him! |
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| 01:07pm 03/11/2004 |
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mood:  artistic music: "Dearly Beloved"- Green Day
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Heart! We will forget him!
You and I -- tonight!
You may forget the warmth he gave --
I will forget the light!
When you have done, pray tell me
That I may straight begin!
Haste! lest while you're lagging
I remember him!
-Emily Dickinson |
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| Im in love with the ordinary... |
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| 12:57pm 03/11/2004 |
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mood: crappy
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yea, didnt go to school today...i woke up early, got dressed, but then decided i really dont feel like doing shit today so i said i had a "headache" and took about...3 aleves...i dont think thats safe, specially since i really feel fine...physically anyway
man, i had a lot of shit to do in school today
oh well, shit happens
i found some pics ry took at his party, im in 2 of them....eww, im not gunna post them
but i will show wat happened afterwards...long after i left
why jonathan is wrapped in sheets....i dont kno, maybe it was good that i left early.
oh yea, but there are some of me trick or treating with them, you can kind of tell its me...eh
ya, im the one in the back with my face painted...i was smiling, but jay was takin the pic so this was the...uh..maybe 3rd take? haha, gawd i hate pictures...atleast i was in make-up (by the way, damn that shit was hard to take off, i basically had to CLAW at my face)
but yea...ry wanted that couch really bad and was making us carry it about a mile...i left soon after..like im going to fucking carry that thing...haha...i laugh in thy face |
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| Never again. Just tonight. Ok. |
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| 03:03pm 02/11/2004 |
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mood:  exhausted music: "Just tonight..."-JEW
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so yea, i was supposed to update yesterday but decided not to, i figure if i update every other day, at least then my posts will be slightly more interesting...eh
well halloween was fun, i dressed up as "The Crow", even though it was kinda meant for a guy... o well, i think i pulled it off fine...leria took pics, so whenever she decides to give me some il post them.ryan has one pic where you can see my makeup...but i dont like it...hehe
lerias neighborhood is full of kids so they had LOTS of candy...free candy rocks. i got a lot of candy, i dont think ive ever had this much
ugh...im tired
school is just work...i hate work
i hate homework, and i hate caring about school, and then i get home...and do nothing.
but anyways, sabrina is now at the cardiologists, i really wanted to stay home so i could go with her but i couldn't, i just pray everything goes fine.
*sigh*
i need a good cry, just one good cry to last me about...2 months
for they past weeks ive jus felt like crying...crying really hard for no apparent reason
ok so im lying,actually i might know why, but i refuse to let that get to me
Some things are just worth waiting for.....right?
yea sure karinna...you keep telling yourself that *pats self on back*
good god, i have this box...full of candy...that im supposed to sell...that seems to be calling me, its kind-of opened on one side and it seems as though the candy is trying to get to me somehow...
i need to talk to someone, because if i dont i dont kno what i'll do
and i think should soon
I have a really bad tendency to keep all of my feelings in, and that only leads me to my "dark place"
and i dont like to do that to myself, i like being happy...atleast semi-content with everything
but its so hard to smile everyday
but then again im never happy, i just like everyone to think so
i dont like to seem like i want someones pity or attention
infact...i dont like thinking about it now
so im leaving...to do nothing except eat...i love eating, food makes me happy |
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| what bitch do i gotta kill to get some damn fruit loops?! |
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| 04:36pm 27/10/2004 |
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mood: disappointed music: "Last Caress"- The Misfits
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...all i wanted were some gawd damn fruit loops
so i go to my kitchen and fill up a huge bowl only to find out WE HAVE NO MILK, so now im pissy and shoving the fruit loops back into the box and not even five minutes later, my mom comes home all like
"oh hey we got milk"
so i come back and get out my bowl again, not knowing that salvador jus slammed about 15 wal-mart bags on the counter all at once
and not even 3 seconds go by when...
BAM *SPLASH*
MILK EVERYWHERE!
now i have no milk...again
I JUST WANT SOME FUCKING FRUIT LOOPS
IS THAT TOO MUCH? HONESTLY!? |
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| 02:02pm 27/10/2004 |
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mood:  hungry music: "Drowning Lessons" MCR
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sorry about that last post, but don't worry,i promise il start the medication immediately (by medication...i mean kool-aid and chocolate)
oh man, that reminds me...i love brina
that girl has to deal with so much, we have to go see a cardiologist soon because she continues getting chest pains, and the doctor also recommended that she stop playing the drums for a while...he should have just shot her in the heart...atleast then it would have hurt her less, i know shes seems fine, but if i was told something like that, i would kill...its not fair..she doesn't deserve that
she loves to run and exercise and now she can't do anything that involves to much physical activity.
why couldn't i just have the heart problem?
she cant have caffeine or chocolate...CHOCOLATE...NO CHOCOLATE
i should go hug her now...shes gone through so much, and shes only 14...god knows that in her mind shes like, 14 going on 27, i always think of her as the older one anyways, again, she doesn't deserve this...and my dad is making it worse, hes being his usually pissy self to us
but anyways, my dad is going to buy her a guitar instead, so that way we can still continue our lessons, but willy her drum instructor was the coolest...oh well...shit happens
o yea...mucho love to my fellow negro nick, he fractured...well JAY fractured his arm by throwing an XBOX at him, but apparently the medication is working wonders |
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| gawd damnit |
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| 09:08pm 25/10/2004 |
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mood: crappy music: "Extrodinary Girl" -Green Day
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today was good, i was supposed to go to debate but since i wasnt prepared (and apparently no one else was) i jus hung out wit nick and melissa...good times but yea, i got home and just walked around like an idiot...and now im in my dark place
i dont like being here
it sucks
its just one of those times when i reflect on the small epic i call my life, and not to go all "emo" and crap, but, i dont like the place im in right now
i have, theoretically, no "real" life
i go to school...come home...sleep...and go to school again
and i dont like being alone, i mean, i have leria...shes my only best friend, but shes good with making friends with other ppl, im not like that, i dont talk alot...i dont kno y
i hate being a girl, i dont kno why, everytime im in my "Dark place" i jus come back to me being alone, watching everyone else find ppl they care about that actually care about them back, it would be nice if that happened once in a while....ewww...carlos..this ugly mexican asked me out, along with 30 other girls...it really makes me feel like crap
i like to think that i wont be alone for long, and one day that one guy will just come along and blah blah blah, but of course god finds the ugliest most annoying guy he can and sends them to me...thanks god...wonderful...but honestly..CARLOS *GAGS* ewwwwwwwwwww
i just want to be happy alone, why cant i just be happy alone? is that really too hard?
btw, i dont like having crushes on people,i should really stop,im in the process of trying to figure out how to block feelings simply because i end up here...in my dark place...*hugs self and returns to fetal position* o wait...i bought some chocolate...chocolate is good Mmmmm
fuck...this song is REALLY not helping..fucking greenday and their catchy ass songs... |
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| YO YO DAWG |
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| 08:53am 10/10/2004 |
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mood:  weird music: "needled 24/7"-children of bodom
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Hello all, im bored...yea..its 8:54am...ive been awake for too long. this morning i woke up at 6 for no apparent reason. ON A FUCKING SUNDAY. i should be sleeping but i cant...ugh..i actually did homework that early, it was weird.
yesterday was sabrina and salvadors birthday...they are 14 now...*tear* course its like, 14 going on 5.
anyways, we went to the mall wit leria early so i could spend brinas birthday cash, haha, and dor of course spent it all at gamestop and EB games. but it was fun, he also bought this huge sword at the new halloween store, i had fun in that store, leria certainly had fun too, specially with that blonde eyeliner wearin employee (mwaahahha!)...hehe.
anyways, then we got home...got bored, and decided to go to waterford for a while, and met up wit nick and his friend angie, that was fun,except now i have a strong urge for cheesecake...o yea, and we have his wallet, empty, but nonetheless, its a wallet, i dont kno if he'll ever get it back, haha. he can make another one anyway, it was made out of duct tape...
hmm, brina bought this coo power rangers jacket, and i gots a greenday shirt, that says "kiss me im punk" but i didnt like that so i wrote on it and changed it to "kiss me im funk" hahaha, wow, im such a loser hahaha, but o well, losers are cool. WE COOL AS FUCK YO....k...im layin off the koolaid for a while
gawd damn,this music can definitely wake someone the fuck up, i was groggy b4 but i poped me in some COB, and good lord...i think ive scared my grandmother now, shes probably going to go pray for me any minute, i put "angels dont kill" on really loud and forgot she was sitting next to me...heheheh, o well :) |
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| 06:41pm 07/10/2004 |
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mood:  okay music: "Until morale improves, the beatings will continue" - MBD
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Wow, for the past week, ive had only one good meal....its been four days...and no real food...so ive been nauseated , and to make things worse, me and brina went out for a walk, and saw something in the grass..it looked kinda funny so we took a closer look, and it was a squirrel tale...followed by pink gushy things we assume were its guts....yea...that was really really sad....and then i saw a dead snake along with its maggot inhabitants...jesus christ, im stayin out of that part of the neighborhood for a while...
so anyways, i havnt updated in a while because...well i just havnt, but today just seemed like an eventful day. Before the dead carcasses, their was a fight on my bus after school, and it kinda scared me. i mean, its not like i havnt seen a fight before, but they were in the aisle right next to my seat, and when one guy lunged at another guy they ended up on top of me and some other girl, it was quite eventful, even when they were escorted off the bus they continued the parade of fist flying and obscene name calling.
i just dont like fights like that, that much anger scares me.
so anyways...nothing has happened besides that in the past weeks or so, life is the same...but doing better...but im not gunna share that now ;) hehe il leave, i have latin homework to do. |
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| Your hazel green tint eyes... |
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| 08:02pm 08/09/2004 |
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mood:  restless music: "warmness on the soul" - A7X
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hmm..i got lots of homework to do, and i ve had bout...a week or so to do it, so of course i do it now bcuz thats just how i do things in my world...self torture...hehe
well anyways...im bored..and uhh....yea..i should do homework. but im not going to..thats wat bus rides are for! haha
yea so, i should really work on my bass stuff, im supposed to learn this blues rhythym, and he gave me the sheet music...but i kinda cant read music..hehe, but il figure it out, i jus need to find the notes on my bass and listen to a cd i have...but its gunna take work..i can play alot of stuff by ear, BUT ANWAYS, im bored...and im gunna go play lips of deceit, cuz i just heard and i kno it.....and uhh...im bored..hehe
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| And we have gone through good and bad times.... |
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| 03:00pm 06/09/2004 |
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mood:  nerdy music: "Warmness on the Soul" - A7X
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ya so i put in a new background,
its still pretty big so il try to fix it some other time
im jus too lazy to do it now. anyways, the other hurricane passed and everything seems fine, but now i dont go to school until thursday
which is good cuz i had a shitload of homework to do anyways
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| Mad World |
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| 06:37pm 02/09/2004 |
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mood:  amused music: "Holier Than Thou" - Metallica
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All around me are familiar faces
Worn out places
Worn out faces
Bright and early for their daily races
Going nowhere
Going nowhere
Their tears are filling up their glasses
No expression
No expression
Hide my head I want to drown my sorrow
No tomorrow
No tomorrow
And I find it kind of funny
I find it kind of sad
The dreams in which I’m dying
Are the best I’ve ever had
I find it hard to tell you
'Cause I find it hard to take
When people run in circles
It’s a very very
Mad world
Mad world
Children waiting for the day they feel good
Happy birthday
Happy birthday
Made to feel the way that every child should
Sit and listen
Sit and listen
Went to school and I was very nervous
No one knew me
No one knew me
Hello teacher tell me what’s my lesson
Look right through me
Look right through me
And I find it kind of funny
I find it kind of sad
The dreams in which I’m dying
Are the best I’ve ever had
I find it hard to tell you
I find it hard to take
When people run in circles
It’s a very very
Mad world
Mad world
enlarged in your world
Mad world |
funny thing is, the second verse sounds like my entire ninth grade year....sad really, but watever, im in a good mood! today was good.
no skool tomorra cuz of another fucking hurricane. GAH
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| EL BAJO SUPREMO, excuse the messy room |
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| 08:45pm 26/08/2004 |
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mood: jubilant music: "This Time" Eighteen Visons
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ya, its a cheap fender squire that u get with starter kits...only twenty frets damnit! i need a new one...but im cheap...and broke..and my parents...ya..there broke so i dont wanna bug them...il wait for my birthday, then il be able to get away with it haha |
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